August 15, 2020

Lockdown Portraits Session Nine


No expectations • Bente

portrait, by nils hendriks, 2020

During the Corona Lockdown 2020 I came up with this personal mini project: Lockdown Portraits, showing real people – not models – and how they deal with all the ordeals that isolation brings with it. Accompanying the photos are 2 questions I asked each one of them and their answers.

can you describe to what extent
the lockdown has affected your life and how?
both on a personal and professional level?

Just a few months before the lockdown, end of 2019, I decided to work for myself as a freelancer, and start my own business. I decided that 2020 will be my ‘play’ year full of new experiences, personal growth and development. I took a sabbatical, travelled, chilled, but also worked, and my business was growing. Although still traveling, and chilling in Bali, in March most countries were closing their borders, I decided to shorten my stay, be with family and friends and return to the Netherlands. But it wasn’t any fun. When I was home in Amsterdam, the streets were empty, the bars were closed, I couldn’t hug my family and friends.

No parties, no gatherings, no social life, no dating life, no work, no traveling, but inherent to the lockdown.

But then I reminded myself the sentence Reinhold Niebuhr mentioned in his book “Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference”

I took this as an opportunity to reset the clock for myself, to take life as it comes, and be alone with myself and my own emotions, without any distractions.

if anything, what do you think
will you take away from all this.
any lessons learned?

Yes, to never expect anything. Even with such a tremendous world-wide global issue, people don’t change. And if they change, they don’t need any pandemic to do so, they would have done it anyway, because they wanted it.

In 2019 I made the plan that 2020 will be a year for personal- and developmental growth, exploration, not earning money, but just ‘play’, travel and chill. And nothing changed this plan, except that it felt that the whole world was joining me in this for maximum two months :-)